[sv-rituals] please help....
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• August 12, 2002
Dear respected Vaishnavas and Bhaktas; I am in desperate need of some advise. I am incapable of deciding what is it that I am supposed to do in this great predicament I am in. By the mercy of the lord, I have been given a chance and permission to worship Sri Saligram bhagwan. And we all know that in order to worship Sri Saligram, the environment in which ones lives in and one himself, must be really pure. I live at home with my parents. Serving my parents has always been important for me as I am their only child. Basically, the environment in which I live in, in my opinion, is not ideal for the worshipping of Sri Bhagwan. And it really hurts that I am not doing anything to rectify that as in order to do so I would have to either leave home or ask my parents to bring changes to their diet. So that is what I did. I attempted to explain the importance of maintaining a sattvic diet. I didn't have any luck. I do also admit to all respected bhaktas that I am also incapable of holding back my feelings and have a tendency to get angry. Yes, I do admit it...I do get angry and say harsh things that I regret. ( And I realise most of my weaknesses and its main root, that is lack of humility and false ego). So I did get angry towards my parents. In short, in my attempt to create a shuddha environment around the house, and in order to please Sri Bhagwan, I caused a lot of hurt to my family. I became the source of hurt for everyone in my family, to an extent that they have prepared to disown me. I did not ever want to be the source of pain and hurt for anyone, let alone my parents and family. But I have. Your Insignificant servant
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