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Thiruvaaymozhi 10.3- KaNNA! place You Palms on our heads!

From: Madhavakkannan V (srivaishnavan_at_hotmail.com)
Date: Fri Oct 02 1998 - 03:32:08 PDT

Sri:

Dearest Sisters and Brothers,

NammAzhWar wished to be in Trivandrum and be His servant for ever in the 
last ten; Since it did not immediately materialise, he gets terribly 
deprssed again and gets suspicious and confused as to why Bhagawaan 
still has not taken him to His abode. AzhwAr gets into 
the"ParAnusanAyaki" role again and laments here! She sings as if the 
cowherd girl, has been with KaNNan for one full night and now, is 
worried because the morning will come and KaNNan will leave her, and go 
behind the cows. NampiLLai calls this as "Kaalai poosal" while earlier 
he called "malligai kamazh thenRal" Thiruvaaymozhi as "maalai poosal".

1. KaNNA! With Your leaving me, my bamboo like shoulders get thin. 
Without even bothering about my pitiable state and my separtion from 
You, these peacocks are happily shouting; They are dancing in groups; 
Oh! No! You are starting off to go behind the cows to the forest. This 
one day time, (with Your being away from me) is going to be like 
thousand yugams for me. What can I do now? Can You torment me like that 
with Your attractive Lotus eyes? KaNNA! I think You HAVE NO MERCY AT ALL 
ON ME! You are not considerate at all on me! (NampiLLai says "When I am 
with You now and having a blissful happiness, still the time is ticking 
off and in the morning Your leaving me terriefies me! But these peahens 
are enjoying, shouting and dancing with their mates so happily and have 
no such fears". - what an anubhavam of NampiLLai!)

2. KaNNA! You have no consideration for me; Are You merciful for me? NOT 
AT ALL. When You were with me and hugged my breasts and embraced me, 
such a hug of Yours brings me exquisite happiness in me which is beyond 
that of Paramapadham and that drowns even my intellect. "Is it a dream?" 
I used to ask myself, and in such delerious state, the joy geos beyond 
my AthmA even and reaches all corners of my jIvan. When I think of that 
joy, KaNNA, Your leaving me very soon (when it dawns) pains my heart. Oh 
My Lord! Please do not leave me! For me, please do not go hereafter to 
the forest and aviod running behind the cows".

3. Since You go to the forest for taking care of cows, You are leaving 
me; Because of Your leaving me, my "uyir" jIvan will not stay with me 
and I will simply perish. There is NO ONE FOR ME AS A COMAPANION OR 
SUPPORT. Hence, even if I don't perish, I will not be able to see Your 
dance (as You are not there with me). The day will appear extremely 
longer and will be like a l....ong l.....ong time. Tears contnuously 
roll down from my beautiful large eyes. Such poor girls born in this low 
"cowherd" group, should get rid of their loneliness (of being away from 
their hearthrob KaNNan.) and get their sorrows and pangs of separation 
destroyed.

4. GovindhA! You are not at all considering our loneliness and 
helplessness, though we are all Your servants. Have You ever thought of 
our plight by leaving us alone, when You are the Only Support for us, 
KaNNA! You ARE READY TO TAKE CARE OF THOSE COWS, (AND ARE READY TO 
IMMEDIATELY LEAVE US!). (And You are a glib talker, too!). With Your 
sugar coated cajoling words, You are deceiving us. Though it is sweet, 
it is deceit. The air that accompanies Your word when spoken by You, 
reaches each corner of my mind, and squeeze me, KaNNA! Those cheating, 
sugar coated words of Yours, that come out of those Beautiful red lips, 
- when I think of them now, my whole body burns (with Your deceit). Oh 
No! My jIvan is languishing terribly.

5. Oh KaNNA! The One who has gone during the day with the cows! Thinking 
of Your "consolation" like deceitful words are simply burning my body; 
The evening, , with the breeze filled with fragrance of jasmine, walks 
in, like a proud elephant. In that fragrant breeze, I can smell the 
flower garland that You are wearing on Your chest (where kausthubham is 
shining brightly). You should bless this lowly servant of Yours- to give 
that fragrant smell of mullai flower (from Your chest) on my beautiful 
breasts- to give the nectar from Your mouth, and to keep Your Lotus palm 
on our heads. (adadaaa! What a beauty! What could have been AzhwAr's 
emotional suffering and request! Words fail to come to my rescue, 
dearest Sisters and Brothers.)

6. Oh Lord- The One who has the large eyes like the big Ocean! (karuNaik 
kadal! You should place Your lovely palm on our heads as an ornament to 
our heads. But Yoy are going with the cows. There will be many girls, to 
gently squeeze Your Beautiful Lotus Feet. Even then, we are here 
suffering from the pangs of separation from You.(means: You don't miss 
anything by leaving us; Wherever You go, there will be servants to do 
kaimkaryam to You; Whereas, We miss You greatly.) Since we are suffering 
here so much, we are not with contented feminity. With our sharp, 
darting eyes, tears keep rolling down the cheeks. Tears do not appear to 
stop. The heart also is NOT stable. Hence, leaving us, who can NOT even 
bear a single second of being separated from You, Your going to the 
forest with cows, is NOT proper and appropriate for You. It is a great 
pity for us that our AthmAs are melting and burning like a wax in the 
fire.

7. Oh My dearest KaNNA! MaNivaNNA! Exerting Your Lotus flower like Feet, 
Your going to the forest to take care of cows, brings us tremendous 
pains in our heart (because You are suffering) and torments our body and 
bangles and waist band simply fall off by our getting thin due to 
"pasalai" disease (for being separated from You). From the eyes, that 
are like freash pure Lotus flowers, like perals dripping, the tears come 
down. The two breasts have become plae and the shoulders are longing (to 
be hugged by You). You, are exerting Your Lotus feet and are causing 
pains to Your legs by walking with the cows. Due to Your love for those 
cows, You are going to the forest with them. But we are worried as to 
what will happen to You, if some asurAs come on the way and fight with 
You? When we even think of that, our AthmA is simply melting like a wax 
in the fire.

8. We get into terrible thinking and worries, when we think of asurAs 
coming on Your way to fight with You. KaNNA! hence, please do not go 
with the cows. My desire for You and the joy of joining with You makes 
me feel terribly painful (with viragha thaapam- languishing). Hence, 
please do not leave me and do not go away. You are captivating the 
"Aayar" (cowherd) girls by waving Your Lotus Palms and by glancing at 
them with Your lovely Lotus Eyes. Your lion like gait (simha gathi) and 
Your smooth PeethAmbharam, (waist dress) and the exquisitely beautiful 
alankaaram are simply making them go crazee after You. Even let these 
girls (who are caught by Your beauty) be hanging around here to enjoy 
You; I don't mind. (rather I enjoy). But Don't go away to the forest.(at 
least You will be in my eyesight, even if You are with other girls.) 

9. KaNNA! Even if You, willingly roam around with other girls, still we 
can bear that. Because we would like You to enjoy and that is all that 
we need. To please You is our objective. Hence, do not go away to the 
forest. EmpreumaanE! Kamsan's asurAs take various forms and try to kill 
You. They always are waiting for You to come out. hence, listen to us 
and do not go away! aiyO! I can NOT baer leaving You, KaNNA!

10.Oh My Lord! The One who has red coral like lips! Oh Master of Cowherd 
Group! The cruel terrible asurAs of Kamsan, who trouble the penances of 
Rishis, are wandering here and there. And You also always are going 
alone. You are not even going with Balaraman. We are all, hence, wooried 
about Your safety and are burning with such fearsome thoughts. aiyO! You 
should not ignore my pleas. Please listen to me and  do not go with the 
cows. But You are NOT listening. You think even staying at Paramapadham 
also is less grand than going to the forest behind these cows! (What a 
sowlabhyam!)

11. Our Lord of AAyar kulam (Cowherd group), The Red mouthed Lord - 
kaNNan. About Him Sri SadagOpar of Thirukkurugoor has sung 1000 
pasurams. These ten pAsurams (out of his 1000 pAsurams) are about the 
lamenting words of Aayar Girl pleading KaNNAn not to leave her. Readers 
of these ten will get the same fruits of the readers of all other tens 
too.

NammAzhwAr ThiruvadigaLE SaraNam


Ram Ram

With Best Regards

NarayaNa dAsan madhavakkannan


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